![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Split Personality Assessment
Sep. 8th, 2008 03:57 pmIt's been a few weeks since I split my journal into DV_Girl, ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
dervish_girl and dvnt_spirit and so far I'm feeling a bit mixed about the results.
DV_Girl has continued to be my primary focus, which makes me somewhat happy, but dvnt_spirit seems to be languishing a bit. I have many more projects in store for her but I've had so much minutia to take care of that they've been back burner. I definitely feel like I should be spending more time on my spiritual and fantasy life.
Meanwhile, most worrying is that by separating out dervish_girl, it seems that side of myself has become much more hateful and caustic. Sort of standing on a soapbox and screaming at everyone who passes by. It's like a subset of the greater internet fuckwad theory. Even though the account is openly connected to 'me' there's still a feeling of added insultation. I wonder if perhaps I should set her journal to friends only or make it more difficult for me to post there to balance out the aggression that journal seems to contain. I'm just not interested in being such a hateful creature and I'd like to purge or at least master that rage.
The best thing to do is probably to try converting that anger into positive things. Art, music, animation that will (hopefully) make others see my point of view better than just shouting and being angry. Of course, the problem is that there are so many things to be angry about in the world today that it's impossible to vent it all that way, and sometimes one needs to just say things RIGHT NOW so they can focus on more important issues. So maybe dervish_girl does have some positive aspects as a vent to keep me from exploding. Defaulting her journal to friends only probably wouldn't be a bad plan though.
dervish_girl and dvnt_spirit and so far I'm feeling a bit mixed about the results.DV_Girl has continued to be my primary focus, which makes me somewhat happy, but dvnt_spirit seems to be languishing a bit. I have many more projects in store for her but I've had so much minutia to take care of that they've been back burner. I definitely feel like I should be spending more time on my spiritual and fantasy life.
Meanwhile, most worrying is that by separating out dervish_girl, it seems that side of myself has become much more hateful and caustic. Sort of standing on a soapbox and screaming at everyone who passes by. It's like a subset of the greater internet fuckwad theory. Even though the account is openly connected to 'me' there's still a feeling of added insultation. I wonder if perhaps I should set her journal to friends only or make it more difficult for me to post there to balance out the aggression that journal seems to contain. I'm just not interested in being such a hateful creature and I'd like to purge or at least master that rage.
The best thing to do is probably to try converting that anger into positive things. Art, music, animation that will (hopefully) make others see my point of view better than just shouting and being angry. Of course, the problem is that there are so many things to be angry about in the world today that it's impossible to vent it all that way, and sometimes one needs to just say things RIGHT NOW so they can focus on more important issues. So maybe dervish_girl does have some positive aspects as a vent to keep me from exploding. Defaulting her journal to friends only probably wouldn't be a bad plan though.
