Split Personality Assessment

[pasithea]

It's been a few weeks since I split my journal into DV_Girl, dervish_girl and dvnt_spirit and so far I'm feeling a bit mixed about the results.

DV_Girl has continued to be my primary focus, which makes me somewhat happy, but dvnt_spirit seems to be languishing a bit. I have many more projects in store for her but I've had so much minutia to take care of that they've been back burner. I definitely feel like I should be spending more time on my spiritual and fantasy life.

Meanwhile, most worrying is that by separating out dervish_girl, it seems that side of myself has become much more hateful and caustic. Sort of standing on a soapbox and screaming at everyone who passes by. It's like a subset of the greater internet fuckwad theory. Even though the account is openly connected to 'me' there's still a feeling of added insultation. I wonder if perhaps I should set her journal to friends only or make it more difficult for me to post there to balance out the aggression that journal seems to contain. I'm just not interested in being such a hateful creature and I'd like to purge or at least master that rage.

The best thing to do is probably to try converting that anger into positive things. Art, music, animation that will (hopefully) make others see my point of view better than just shouting and being angry. Of course, the problem is that there are so many things to be angry about in the world today that it's impossible to vent it all that way, and sometimes one needs to just say things RIGHT NOW so they can focus on more important issues. So maybe dervish_girl does have some positive aspects as a vent to keep me from exploding. Defaulting her journal to friends only probably wouldn't be a bad plan though.

Comments

[paka.livejournal.com]

The most recent posts are about Palin, and I can't really fault you for getting angrier and angrier about her. I know that her nomination in particular makes me incredibly pissed off, because here's someone who truly represents everything that's wrong with this country - and yet Americans will buy it completely anyway.

I can only imagine how much angrier I would be, if I had a vagina and therefore that was assumed to make me automatically sympathetic to an ethically bankrupt religious fanatic.

The Buddha compared anger to a coal you want to throw at your enemies, with the idea that if you can't throw it, you drop it to avoid hurting yourself. He never said not to feel angry. Venting is pretty equivalent to dropping the coal. That said, were it my journal I'd set dervish_girl friends only; having things public is asking for Republican sympathizers to troll you, and I feel the frustration of being potentially trolled wouldn't be equal to any emotional payoff you might get for being able to flame them.

[dv-girl.livejournal.com]

Nah. Actually, I don't flame them. I ban them. So much easier and then they rage and scream and throw feces but I don't have to listen to it. I'm happy to let them waste their time on a tackling dummy. :)

[ff00ff.livejournal.com]

I suckle at the teat of Dervish_girl's rage. That sort of caustic vitriolic ranting is sweetest ambrosia to me. I want to go out and throw bricks through the appropriate windows with her. Maybe reading that blog isn't healthy for me, but there's a starving radical inside me who wants to hear someone who's as angry as I try to forbid myself from being.

one vent-identity to another!

[circuit-four.livejournal.com]

Comrade Dervish like maybe to do with Laika coffee sometime? ^_^