Weekend Recap

Wow.

Finally a weekend were it wasn't raining the whole time and disasters were kept to a minimum.

On Saturday I built an elevated frame for the bed so we now have lots more storage space, though with the boxspring, it's a bit like sleeping on a bunk bed. We're well over a meter off the ground now.

We also went to see Kick Ass which well.... Kicked ass... It's my favorite super hero film since Mystery Men It's also the first film I've seen where Nicolas Cage was tolerable since Raising Arizona

On Sunday, I started working on the cabinet doors to put on the elevated bed frame. Can't afford a router right now so tried using the dremmel tool since it has a router attachment.

1) The dremmel's router attachment SUCKS. You can't tighten the guide down enough so it goes all over the place as soon as you start using it. Also, the tool is too light to use properly as a router.
2) The dremmel halted and caught fire right in my hands. Pretty scary. No harm done to me but not my favorite way to stop a project.

So... Now my cabinet door pieces are sitting and will be sitting for about a month. *sigh* But at least I can put the under bed stuff away for now, even if it's not all beautiful.

After the dremmel fire, I switched tasks and worked in the garden for a while. Stacey grilled us a bunch of vegetables and tofu and we sat outside and had a rather pleasant evening. I really love it here. So peaceful.

Does not play well with others

If you look me up on Flickr, you'll find that all my photos are of me. In fact, almost everything I post everywhere is always about me. I'm so self absorbed that even I find it annoying. I don't know how anyone else can stand it and I guess maybe they can't. Compared to how most people get on, I seem to have very few close friends. I know a lot of really awesome people but I generally feel it's more like they tolerate my presence than we're really friends.

I guess it's kind of a vicious circle. I think that most of the reason I am so self absorbed is because I'm always screaming, "Please somebody like me! Look how neat I am! I'm worth knowing!" but when someone does pay attention, I just kind of keep going. I have to be better and neater or the novelty will wear off and they'll find someone else to associate with. So I'm never really 'with' people. I'm beside them, near them, around them, but never really part of the group.

I'm also really bad at fantasy play with others. I have to put on a performance and entertain them. I have to be actively creating story. I can't ever seem to let go and be part of the story. This really depresses me because I know some great story tellers. I just don't know how to let go. I think I blame this last part on my mother. She controlled the story of my childhood and it never made me happy and as soon as I began telling my own story (The one where I was not a good little christian soldier) she abandoned me, told me my story was stupid and ill conceived and would end in destruction.

I don't really know how to interact with others. I know there must be more options than 'control everything' or 'be manipulated and bullied'. I'm certain of it. I don't believe in dichotomies. I just can't seem to find a middle ground where I am sincere.

Also... If nothing else, I am my own best friend. I genuinely like me and like being me, and I like doing all the stuff I do. The further I push myself, the happier I am. Nothing makes me feel quite as good as creating stuff, even if it's stuff I never show anyone or tell anyone about. Though part of that is probably the knowledge that if I've created one of something, I can create another and the next one will probably be better than this one so when I show that one to someone, it will be even better than whatever I created for myself.

Still. I wish I knew how to be friends with people. :/

Spam mail?

... I think I just got the best spam mail ever.

It had no links or images associated with it (or possibly they were just stripped out by my mail server) I guess it's just a viral marketing attempt by $STORE. Anyhow, here's what it was:

Things to do @ $STORE while the significant other is taking his/her sweet time:

11. Look right into the security camera, and use it as a mirror while you pick your nose.
12. Take up an entire aisle in Toys by setting up a full scale battlefield with G. I. Joe's vs. the X-Men.
13. Ask other customers if they have any Grey Poupon.
15. Switch the men's and women's signs on the doors of the restroom.
16. Dart around suspiciously while humming the theme from "Mission Impossible."
17. Set up a "Valet Parking" sign in front of the store.
19. Hide in the clothing racks and when people browse through, say things like "pick me! pick me!!"
21. If the store has a food court, buy a soft drink; explain that you don't get out much, and ask if they can put a little umbrella in it.

I won't tell you how many of these I've done but it is a non-zero number. Also other shenanigans. It's a shame, $STORE. Your viral marketing might almost have worked on me except you're a big slimy scumbag and I'd never shop at you so it just won't work.