Depressive
Aug. 16th, 2010 02:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pasitheaI feel staid and stunted in my art. There's still a lot of things I need to work on and things I don't do well but more to the point, I don't feel like my art has any real focus or meaning. It's just all kind of practice for some theoretical time in the future when I'll be 'good' and can do 'meaningful' art.
I also feel broken in my social interactions. I'd like to have friends and be social and interact with people but I just don't know how. Sometimes I can fake it really well and seem competent at social interaction but honestly it's always horribly stressful for me to do it and I can only do it for little bits at a time and then I fall apart. The result is that I never managed to maintain friendships. I'm just a rotten friend I guess. :(
I also feel broken in my social interactions. I'd like to have friends and be social and interact with people but I just don't know how. Sometimes I can fake it really well and seem competent at social interaction but honestly it's always horribly stressful for me to do it and I can only do it for little bits at a time and then I fall apart. The result is that I never managed to maintain friendships. I'm just a rotten friend I guess. :(
