I felt a bit sorry for my younger self because I recognize a time in my life when I might have been one of them. Particularly towards people like [info]queenofstripes and [info]xydexx.
The funny thing is... I would've definitely been one of the people who just sort of looked self-conscious and went out of their way to avoid the whole horde. I can't imagine being one of the snarky, nasty people -- I might've even envied you guys a little -- but the very idea of interacting with the big, scary, provocative crowd in any way would've given me hives!
I'm actually very, very low on chutzpah in face-to-face situations. Peggy discovered this during her visit, probably to her huge disappointment -- I'm MUCH more daring here in the studio. Real life is random, ambiguous, and scary -- and seeing somebody's reaction in realtime just paralyzes me.
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Date: 2005-08-02 03:07 am (UTC)The funny thing is... I would've definitely been one of the people who just sort of looked self-conscious and went out of their way to avoid the whole horde. I can't imagine being one of the snarky, nasty people -- I might've even envied you guys a little -- but the very idea of interacting with the big, scary, provocative crowd in any way would've given me hives!
I'm actually very, very low on chutzpah in face-to-face situations. Peggy discovered this during her visit, probably to her huge disappointment -- I'm MUCH more daring here in the studio. Real life is random, ambiguous, and scary -- and seeing somebody's reaction in realtime just paralyzes me.