What Dreams May Come

[pasithea]

...dreams

I seldom dream. Most of my nights are just black. I wonder if I just don't remember them. Various people have postulated theories that I didn't remember them or that I didn't get enough sleep. Stuff like that. The last few weeks I've had several dreams. I'm left with a couple hypothesis on the nature of why I dream or don't, and it isn't lack of sleep.

It's either that I'm in a phase of careful observation at the moment, and much like someone who considers food utilitarian and doesn't care if it's the same thing they ate yesterday, I think of sleep as utilitarian, so my observation of whether or not I dream is biasing my sample and causing me to dream because I'm actively interested in it. The other likelihood is stress (based on current life situations and common dream content) This one actually seems more plausible becuase I have drempt in the past and often it's related to an issue I'm thinking of at the time but the implication of that is that I've basically been stree-free for 99.8% of the past 5 years. In and of itself, that idea is a bit alarming.

At any rate, recent dreams include: Moving across the country with Stacey to a little place int he woods, moving to the city, living in a filthy apartment crawling with roaches, becoming homeless and being forced to find a home for my cat, knowing that the greasy man I gave her to would eat her but walking away to save myself. Dream about winning the lottery, realizing it's a dream and thinking I can make it real if I can just see the numbers on the lottery ticket and (of course) being woke up by the alarm clock just before I can read the numbers (actually, a series of incidents kept preventing me from looking at the numbers in the dream; probably symbolizing my rational mind saying, 'If you see the numbers, you'll know you're just scamming yourself right now)

A dream about flying. That was sort of interesting. Not in the sense of being weightless or anything, just using physical and mental force to fly. I think this may be my body analyzing skateboard movements. Regardless, it was a fun (if pointless) sort of dream and I'd like to explore it more.

And last night I drempt that I bicycled down a country road to work and after work, I bought a bottle of wine and hid it in a paper bag and sat int he back of the bus drinking it and the bus driver kicked someone else off the bus for drinking and kept eyeing me but I felt paranoid and huddled down behind the seat and ketp drinking. Then some guy started talking to me. I talked to him about my stop motion animation and he revealed that he worked for Nickelodeon and gave me his card, hinting I should call about getting a job. Very weird because 1) I don't want to animate professionally, just do my own thing and 2) from the stories I've heard, Nickelodeon is _NOT_ who you want to work for in the animation world.

So.. I dunno. Strange. Most of these dreams have an oppressive and slightly gritty feel to them. I like that, even though for most people they'd probably be nightmarish. So, whatever the root cause, I hope the persisst for a while. If I've got to waste time sleeping, at least this is mildly entertaining.

Comments

[perlandria.livejournal.com]

One friend insists the b complex vitamins are the way to remember dreams, but if your dreams start getting fast and jery like old films it is time to cut back on the Bs. I've never tested it out though.

[(Anonymous)]

The biologists say you MUST dream, that it's part of the way brainwaves work during sleep. Why sometimes you remember them or not, I don't know....