It's that time again...
Dec. 16th, 2004 09:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pasithea*sigh* :/
There is nothing that makes me more depressed than looking through the catalog of classes and knowing how few I can take because of my work schedule. I hunger and am slowly starved. I'm filled with a silent hate towards family and loved ones. Resenting that I cannot ever be just a student. No one has ever supported me, really. My parents paid for my brother's six years at university but they kept me out of gifted classes and prevented me from skipping grades because it would be 'bad for my social development'. They only grudgingly sent me to university, and only the cheapest one around. I could only take classes that would 'get a god paying job' at a school that has a poor program for the field I was designated. What marginal support I got from my parents ended when I came out to them. My brother went to school and studied music. When my parents die, they'll probably leave everything to him. I'll never have the sort of support required to let me be a real student.
I carry a 3.998 GPA, the only B I've ever got was in a painting class... for being tardy once too often after working late... I've taken 15 and more hours in a quarter while working full time and done well in school. Work has been the issue. I 'need to be available to work overtime on demand'.
I feel like I'm suffocating, drowning, starving. I need school and challenges and provoking thoughts. *sigh* I know it's all a fantasy. For now I must take the few classes that fit my available time and resolve what schedule conflicts I can. Any suggestions would be appreciated. Here's what fits in my current schedule and doesn't have pre-req issues. :/ Next quarter, more math and language classes, I think. This quarter art and music to get me back into the swing after three quarters of minimal classes (because of work).
So.. There is is. Witht his weird work schedule I could theorhetically take ~18 hours of classes, in theory, without work conflicts. I had a bad experience with creative writing in highschool, and I'm not sure the music class is really what I need. Probably more sensible to skip those. On the other hand, it might be fun to see if I could pull 18 credit hours and work full time and come out all A's and looking good at work. My previous high has been 15 credit hours. Probably can't afford it though. I should skip the monday classes.
So that leaves one question. Design or sound mixing? Both useful, both interesting both I'll do well in. Sound mixing runs awful late. OTOH, Sound mixing matches well with the sound for animation class. :/
There is nothing that makes me more depressed than looking through the catalog of classes and knowing how few I can take because of my work schedule. I hunger and am slowly starved. I'm filled with a silent hate towards family and loved ones. Resenting that I cannot ever be just a student. No one has ever supported me, really. My parents paid for my brother's six years at university but they kept me out of gifted classes and prevented me from skipping grades because it would be 'bad for my social development'. They only grudgingly sent me to university, and only the cheapest one around. I could only take classes that would 'get a god paying job' at a school that has a poor program for the field I was designated. What marginal support I got from my parents ended when I came out to them. My brother went to school and studied music. When my parents die, they'll probably leave everything to him. I'll never have the sort of support required to let me be a real student.
I carry a 3.998 GPA, the only B I've ever got was in a painting class... for being tardy once too often after working late... I've taken 15 and more hours in a quarter while working full time and done well in school. Work has been the issue. I 'need to be available to work overtime on demand'.
I feel like I'm suffocating, drowning, starving. I need school and challenges and provoking thoughts. *sigh* I know it's all a fantasy. For now I must take the few classes that fit my available time and resolve what schedule conflicts I can. Any suggestions would be appreciated. Here's what fits in my current schedule and doesn't have pre-req issues. :/ Next quarter, more math and language classes, I think. This quarter art and music to get me back into the swing after three quarters of minimal classes (because of work).
| Class | DOY | Hrs | Cred | Comments |
| Storyboarding for Animation | W | 6:30P-10:10P | 3 | I need to take this class. |
| Remote Sound Mixing | Th | 6:15P-11:55P | 4 | Mixing for TV/Radio. Sounds really interesting but conflicts with Design |
| Sound for Animation | Tu | 12:30P-4:10P | 3 | Probably fun and useful. |
| Design | Tu/Th | 6:30P-9:10P | 3 | Taken before at another school but didn't feel the course there was very good. Feels important to the type of artwork I'd like to do. |
| Intro to Music | M | 6:00P-9:40P | 4 | Guided exploration of music. I keep whining about this lack in my life. Maybe this is a solution. |
| Creative Writing | M | 3:45-5:25 | 4 | This class would probably be a lot of work. Timewise, fits nicely with music class. |
So.. There is is. Witht his weird work schedule I could theorhetically take ~18 hours of classes, in theory, without work conflicts. I had a bad experience with creative writing in highschool, and I'm not sure the music class is really what I need. Probably more sensible to skip those. On the other hand, it might be fun to see if I could pull 18 credit hours and work full time and come out all A's and looking good at work. My previous high has been 15 credit hours. Probably can't afford it though. I should skip the monday classes.
So that leaves one question. Design or sound mixing? Both useful, both interesting both I'll do well in. Sound mixing runs awful late. OTOH, Sound mixing matches well with the sound for animation class. :/
