Tank Girl vs Ameilie

Yesterday I baked pies and then we went to tugrik and revar's house and watched TV and ate chinese food and pies. Good to see people and, despite knowing Tor for like a decade, I'd never been to his house so it was kinda neat. Anyhow, there was a compilation of Tank Girl, so I browsed that while people were watching Red Versus Blue *sigh* I've never really got to read enough Tank Girl and I only got through maybe one or two comics worth this time. I need to read all of it, and lots of other things too. I love the abstract, surreal, and post modern but I never seem to make time for it in my life.

I found that I could not read Tank Girl and watch Ameilie at the same time. Good movie. Odd in that I think I'd done just about everything she was depicted as doing in that film. Sorta good to know there are other nuts out there. It blended well with Tank Girl really. Made me a bit wistful and wishing I lead a more interactive life than I do. The thing that really blended between them for me was the way Ameile and the old man traded video tapes contrasted against the way in Tank Girl, one of the writers would just draw or write stuff into the work in progress. It's something I'm missing. I'm always very protective of my work and despite wanting chaos, I seem to keep my internal space very ordered. I think I need to try working on something that is non representational, non-linear, and invitive to others to just add their own bits to it. I think it wants to be somewhat large and probably heavy weight. Illustration board or something. I'll have to clean off my desk and put it back in order first, I suppose.

In the interim, I think I should read some comics.

mystical mediums

I like pure blacks and sometimes the feel of a ballpoint pen but I want to draw with something that isn't so smooth, something that lays down a heavy black but sticks and makes little sucking chapping noises like a grease pencil, but I want to be able to turn the page of my sketchbook and not have it smear or stick to the previous page and make a negative.

I want a media like charcoal that I can spread with my finger but I don't want it to get my hands dirty and be something I can use when I've only stopped for two minutes and again I don't want to use a fixer.

I want a metal barrel rapidograph that I never have to clean.

I want a watercolor and gouche set that fits in my pocket and doesn't get muddy with a brush that has a good tip and cleans out easily. Maybe a brush pen filled with water that I can just squeeze until it's clean. I think I could make this but I don't want to spend any money on it.

I want the time to use these things and learn and keep learning instead of buying and holding and using not nearly enough.

Maybe if I just had some ability that would be enough.