Internally, I've been in good shape for quite a while now. I feel pretty good about myself. What I've been unable to cope with is external pressure. I am not paranoid. There ARE people out there who would gleefully end my life just because of what I am. What this really gives me is some ideas for how to vent that fear into something that could possibly help me find ways to make some of them less aggressive. Hard to explain but it ties into that post about Henson a few days back.