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Some more thoughts
Mar. 24th, 2006 12:38 amIt's interesting to take a stand a live with the consequences of your actiosn. Sometimes not an alltogether happy experience but so much of our world is without consequence, mabe it's good to experience it now and then.
the only person I'e banned was mercia. Someone I really expected more from. Kind of disappointed, but we hadn't talked much in the past year or so so it's no huge loss to either of us.
On the other hand, I do regret having hurt![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
neogeen I can say that I feel she's in the top five for friendly and positive people I've met on the internet in the past fifteen years and someone I truly respect and admire. I guess the only small comfot is tha tshe has lots of friends and will hopefully heal quickly. I won't be going to make an apology or try to put it aside. I know that I am a viper. Sooner or later I would strike again, and there's no sense in posioning someone who doesn't really deserve it.
I guess that's all I have to say about it. Been too busy to deal with the fallout from this thread I really should have planned better and made this statement on a weekend or something. Or maybe it's better that I can't dwell on it.
Done is done and in part, it's liberating to finally have said it.
For what it's worth to the hurt and angry, I had a religion once, even twice. People within my religion posioned it for me and drove me out to explore other religions I found some of those 'better' but they were still toxic, if to a lesser degree, and they left me vulnerable to attacks from those of the first faith.
Over time, they wore me down and beat all sense of the divine out of me. This blade I swung was forged by those it was welded against. Every blow that was dealt to my spiritual identity helped to shape it's blade.
the only person I'e banned was mercia. Someone I really expected more from. Kind of disappointed, but we hadn't talked much in the past year or so so it's no huge loss to either of us.
On the other hand, I do regret having hurt
neogeen I can say that I feel she's in the top five for friendly and positive people I've met on the internet in the past fifteen years and someone I truly respect and admire. I guess the only small comfot is tha tshe has lots of friends and will hopefully heal quickly. I won't be going to make an apology or try to put it aside. I know that I am a viper. Sooner or later I would strike again, and there's no sense in posioning someone who doesn't really deserve it.I guess that's all I have to say about it. Been too busy to deal with the fallout from this thread I really should have planned better and made this statement on a weekend or something. Or maybe it's better that I can't dwell on it.
Done is done and in part, it's liberating to finally have said it.
For what it's worth to the hurt and angry, I had a religion once, even twice. People within my religion posioned it for me and drove me out to explore other religions I found some of those 'better' but they were still toxic, if to a lesser degree, and they left me vulnerable to attacks from those of the first faith.
Over time, they wore me down and beat all sense of the divine out of me. This blade I swung was forged by those it was welded against. Every blow that was dealt to my spiritual identity helped to shape it's blade.
